Well since my last entry it's been interesting to say the least! I didn't talk to my "muse" as I will call him for a good week. Text's were not responded to nor were any im's left on fb so i thought wow that was faster than it's ever been and maybe I did or said something that was overpowering or maybe it's the fact that I'm still legally married that's bothering him; but no answer was being given so I tried one last time on day 8 of no contact and had a response. Come to find out he was out of state in the mountains and had no signal! LOL wow did i just make a complete ass out of myself w/the things i let fly out of my mouth over the past week! oh well he understands it was only a natural reaction from the past! We hung out again and had a wonderful time! We've texted since and he let me know this time that he'll be gone for a while back to the same place so no signal and for me not to worry b/c he'll be back! So I have a couple of weeks probably before we hang out again which gives me time to get my house totally cleaned like i've been wanting to and now have some motivation to do so; cause he's not allowed here until i have it cleaned and of course the children will not be here either. I was telling my bff how weird this is and different from what i'm use to and she informed me that the hanging out for a few hours and texting every few days or so and the hanging out again 2 weeks later is more like how most people start a relationship. Huh? really? guess i've always had the abnormal of being w/someone almost constantly and talking almost daily right out of the gates; maybe that's always been my problem! lol of well like i said this isn't a relationship this is casual, friends or fwb but still no commitment and no seriousness, just good times and i'm enjoying the ride...it gives me something to look forward to and someone who can make me smile and laugh and feel good about myself not to forget about feeling attractive again. So yes that part of the saga of my life continues and I'm glad it does!
Now as for Joey and the kids; i've been taking the kids to joey's apt. before i leave to go to work every morning w/their clothes, some toys, breakfast, lunch and snacks in their bags and the twins hate it. The last 2 mornings were hell they cried to stay home they didn't want to go over and they don't understand why they have to leave. it's sad but as i'm sorting through stuff i'm gonna make a pile of toys that they can take over to his house to keep there. Hopefully that will help and i'm gonna put one of their game systems (vtech) at his house too but the games have to go back and forth. jaclyn hasn't gone over there once this week she's chosen to stay home...not sure where this is heading w/her and him but she is a teenager now so who knows.
Well I have some chores left to do so i can go to bed but i thought i'd drop a line and keep ya'll informed!
til we meet again,
Finding my way Back!
